So my good friend has been acting weird lately. I don't know what's going on. Strange...I'm not sure what to think about it. Why do people push you away? Don't get me wrong I have pushed people away too. Mainly because I have trust issues. I didn't think he had trust issues though. I think there are some things going on in his life that he didn't want me to know. I think he thought I was going to judge him. I'm not. Nor would I. I adore this man. I adore him more then words could ever say. He is one of my best friends. He loves me for me. Which is very important to me.
You know I talked to one of my friends about the whole church thing last night. It's interesting that he has the same views I do...well I mean has some of the sames views I do. But yet he puts up with it. Useless stuff that is time wasting and judgemental people. I guess I just couldn't handle it so I don't. I mean...why should I? I'm sure people think that I'm non-Christian because of what they see. It seems like people who once knew me feel like my heart has completely changed or was never what they thought it was. Oh well...not my problem. I would like to start a ministry where there is no judging. You come..you are who you are...and you leave..maybe one day you'll change...maybe they won't. But they won't be judged by me or anybody there. I guess we can all dream can't we?
Well I love blogs with pictures....so I'm going to put some up for you.
This is John and his girlfriend Sugar!
This is Sugar having selective hearing haha
This is my new friend Lisa
Keith and I hanging out. I finally got him to hang out with me and he had fun!
This is Rob and I at the St. Patty's Day Parade
This is what happens to your manhood when you hang out with me.
These are my brother's girls
This is Kassy and Keith singing...
Ok that's enough for now!
4 comments:
hey, i enjoyed the pics. as for judgemental people, well, i just keep thinking, um, at least Jesus wasn't like that...
Unfortunately the church is very guilty of being judgemental. We were all born into a sinful nature, and quite often, people who have chosen the church find themselves passing off judgement to those who a)have not yet found the church, rather than trying to bring them in or b)who have found the church but don't fit into their idea of the perfect Christian mold. Often, I think people forget that everyone has a different story, and a different background. Many Christians were raised in a very Christian home, and did not have to experience many of the hardships that others may have had to. For instance: my family and I grew up in church, but during the week, there was abuse that goes way beyond what anyone in our church would have ever been able to think up. My siblings and I went through rebellion, and we each went through it in our own ways. And it even carried over into my first little while at Bethany...but our rebellion was considered as unacceptable to those in the church who never had to experience what we did. The people who grew up in happy, Godly homes did not understand, nor did I expect them to. But it was a few non-judgemental people at Bethany who changed my world, and accepted me for my hurts, and my anger, and my bitterness, and loved me through it all and to Christ. I know I am rambling here, but my point is this: yes, the church is very judgemental, but there are a few within who are not, and who have experienced deep hurts themselves, but have learned how to heal and overcome them. It's hard to find those people, but they are out there. I have found small groups to be very helpful in finding those people who get to know me for the real me, and love me despite my non-conforming mold I come from. I'll be praying that you find those people, too, and that God would begin to help heal your hurts. I know you, too, come from a non-conforming mold, and I know it's hard to find a sense of belonging and acceptance, so I pray that you will find that soon!! Hang in there! And know that if nothing else, you know there are a few bloggers out there who understand:)
hey marie. this is maria. you probably don't remember me..i was at bethany for two semesters..doing the xd thing. anyway, i saw your blog through someone elses. just wanted to say hey. you look good. i read your comment about your views of the church. i am guessing you don't go to church now. that you don't like it. well, i can relate. i am pretty much fed up with the church. you are not the only one who is a christian and can't stand the things you see. like jo said...jesus was not like most people are today. so that's good. you should read my blog about what i have posted about the church. then you can see my viewpoint too. well, i have to go and study before my boy wakes up...hope to talk to you again sometime.
Love your pictures! Kasandra is growing up so fast...freaks me out! I guess at some point in our lives we're all judgemental towards someone else or something! Wish I could say I was out of that catagory and never find myself doing that. I agree w/ Kayla. There are only a few friends that aren't. I know you have some great friends who are really good to you, that you have fun w/ and that aren't judgemental. Just try not to get your hopes up that everyone is going to be like that. Unfotunatly 99% aren't! You ROCK my world sexy, red dress girl! xoxo
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